We welcomed four months with our first frosty weather here in Ottawa. It reminds me that Christmas is creeping up on us. As in, BABY's FIRST CHRISTMAS. And I feel like I'm going to lose myself in creating CHILDHOOD MAGIC people. If I was born for one thing, it was with the purpose of seeing Christmas through a child's eyes. Lord help June. I'm not sure how living your Christmas dreams vicariously through your children affects them in the long term. This is a human experiment in the making! Check back here in 20 years ;)
Month Four has been the most challenging month so far. When you have a baby, no one tells you that in fact it's not the first 8 weeks that are the hardest. Looking back we had a relatively breezy summer. I was ignorant to the fact that Month Four brings on a host of challenges - there's so much growth and change going on, but with it, we've also had some of our fussiest days, and longest nights. But dare I say we're starting to see the light at the end of the tunnel? We had a great sleep last night and the only reason I'm able to be here writing this right now is we're going on a two hour nap which has been unheard of since the second last week of September.
From what I hear, sleep regression and irritability (in both mom and baby, ha!) is a very common symptom of all the new skills babies learn around the fourth month. And seriously, looking at how much June has changed over the past month puts that theory to the test. She's rolling from front to back & now back to front. We've seen her up on all fours in the crawling position. CRAWLING. And even though she can't crawl yet, she's creeping like crazy - which I suspect is half the trouble we've experienced with sleeping; she creeps in her sleep and ends up hitting her head at the top of the crib. Of course this wakes her up and getting back to sleep on her own isn't something that nature teaches you in the first month.
But I do have to say, in the past week, we've seen just a whole heap of personality coming out of our beautiful little girl. She's smiles pretty much non-stop right now; she turns to find us in the room and just gives us the biggest gummy, lopsided smile that you've ever seen. And I haven't even done anything to earn it. She's just smiling, just because. And that makes me so happy inside, you have no idea. And the laughter - oh if there was a sound I could bottle up and take with me until I'm 95 it would be the sound of her first laugh. Which was at Cliff by the way, go figure! How is it that I turned myself into a human sized marionette trying to get her to laugh, and out of nowhere, over-thankgiving weekend, she decides that CLIFF is the worthy one of her most beautiful sound yet. I'll never forget that moment as long as I live.
So month four has been so full. So much trying of patience and running on fumes. But we've just gained so much, as if I didn't already think I had the world before. When we pick her up and she leans back in our arms so that she can get a look at Mike and I, and then she lets out the biggest smile you've ever seen, it's all we can do to keep the tears of happiness from popping. Life is beautiful folks. And it's beautiful because it's not perfect and it's messy and it's the moments while wearing sweatpants, without having showered, done your hair or brushed your teeth and sitting and playing on the floor with your baby who's just so happy to sit and stare and smile with you.
Highlights: Four-month shots were a breeze, we lost more sleep in the first three weeks of October then we did in any other month combined, rolling in every direction, laughing, smiling and a fleeting moment of making it into the crawling position.
Where we went: To visit my parent's for thanksgiving and Applefest, road trips down the 401 galore!
Biggest moments: Hearing her first laugh, Waking up with her in our bed and having her blow raspberries into the quiet dark at 5 am in the morning, Singing Disney songs in the car to keep from (further) melting down.