The first time Mike and I took June “out” by ourselves we talked strategy for about half an hour beforehand. I think she was about two weeks old at the time. I had been out with my mom before that but when my parents left after their stay with us, Mike and I decided to go out for breakfast for the first time as a family of three. It was a lot of “Ok, well... and we’ll put the bucket on the seat beside us at the restaurant.” and “If she starts crying I’ll just take her and walk her around outside,” also “it’s not too far, she should be able to make it there in the car without too much of a fuss.” It sounds maybe a tad silly I’m sure to read it like this, but it was our way of psyching ourselves up. Anyway, I was thinking about how far we’ve come after the summer; on the weekend Mike had a work retreat North of Ottawa at Camp Fortune which is a ski hill in the middle of Gatineau Park. It’s about an hour from where we live and we made the drive and the meal and the socializing without really doing any strategizing beforehand - and that’s when I realized that we’re doing this! We’re totally being parents now and going out into the world (more) confidently with our baby! Most of his team decided to do the zip line course but Mike has a bum ankle (…. and a crippling fear of heights), and I had a baby so that wasn’t in the cards for us (we haven’t come THAT far ;) ). We did manage to get out for a hike on a nicely groomed trail (which was key since I wore floppy little no-name Toms that had absolutely no traction... way to plan ahead Emily). ALSO, deer sighting from the car on the way in!! All around successful day!
It was spitting rain and the old trees reminded me of the Redwoods we saw on our honeymoon. I carried Juney end to end and she didn’t wake up so I think the fresh air agreed with her. It was so enjoyable to be out there together. It’s that sigh of relief “ahhh” feeling when you realize that you are much more equipped for this whole parenthood thing then you originally assumed. And that park is absolutely beautiful - any time of year, particularly in the Fall when the canopy of Maple trees starts to turn colours. It was still green and lush on the weekend but the light rain made everything so soft and muted and you could just sense in the air that the crispy fall feeling is about to erupt as soon as we turn our heads and look the other way.
As an aside, I can’t believe how big she’s getting already. She’s not the little newborn squish anymore. She’s got personality behind her eyes and she is so eager to take in everything around her. Right now her feet and her fists are her favourite and I’d say she spends about 90% of her waking time with either in her mouth. I’m still constantly fighting the battle of “I know I need to get her to nap” so I’ll put her down, and then I’ll just walk around not knowing how to fill my time, and wishing she was awake and with me again. If I wasn’t sure before, I’m positive now that I was born for this. I just love being her momma so much.