Take two on getting this ol' website up and running again! After having spent the better part of early August trying to clean my blog up, you may or may not have noticed that this place was completely out of business for the past week because of an issue with my domain - I've taken some breaks from blogging before, but when all of a sudden I couldn't write even if I wanted to, it was kinda painful in a weird way! I kept thinking of things I wanted to say and do and it's crazy but true, you don't know how good something can be until it's gone... And then I sat down tonight and all of a sudden all that inspiration was gone again - ha! Lesson: don't let other people run your website and always carry around a pen and paper! All this to say, I'm back again again, and if you'll have me, I'd love to actually do some blogging around here!
This summer has been a bit of a struggle for me personally as I'm managing being back at work. The work stuff is great - the being away from the baby is, at times, excruciating. I'm trying to find a balance of "new normal" and practicing "you are where you need to be." I wouldn't say I've mastered it at this point, but I do feel like I'm coming around to the idea that I don't need to be as frantic about the future and about time slipping away from me. It's just that when I look at my family right now I have so much love in my heart; I feel so crazy lucky to have them by my side. I don't want to take any of that for granted. I'm sure other new moms you feel me; there's just all this preciousness you just want to not let it go, not even for a moment. I'm pretty sure that's not healthy for anyone, hence me trying to "curb those emotions Emily." We'll see. One day I think I might be a stay-at-home mom... not right now, but one day. In the meantime, I love what I'm doing and where I'm doing it, so I'm coaxing myself to enjoy the ride... including my awful commute... which I'm trying to frame as "me time." (<-- if you have any tips for embracing this, please send them my way!)
I took these pictures earlier this summer when we were visiting my sister and her family. Their property is gorgeous and dreamy on the best of days but on a summer night it really is perfection. June was in love LOVE with their trampoline (not pictured here), which to us was a brilliant way of confining her to one area (<--- this is SUCH a busy age right now. An amazing age... just busy!) Anyway, back in June I had a bit of an epiphany moment where I decided I was lacking intention in my life - I spent a lot of my free time scrolling my phone, which as a mom with a little one, free time that gets eaten up quickly feels wasted. I wasn't reading, and I was getting the bigger things done but the smaller things I'd had on my to-do list never seemed to move off of it (and fun things like "put photo albums together" stuff that I actually enjoy doing). So In an effort to be more intentional, I deleted APPS from my phone, started reading actual books again (!!) and then a friend reminded me how fun it is to take photos with film! I had completely forgotten, but taking pictures with a film camera has this whole different feeling of setting out to do something - that moment you click the shutter, it feels like a different moment then a picture on an iPhone. I think it's because when it's on film it's there one moment, and gone the next, and you can't take a million to make sure you get the right one. And then there's the process of getting it developed, and the waiting (these took 10 days to come back!) and there is a certain amount of anticipation that you just don't get with digital photos. These aren't the best photos ever, but for those reasons, I just love them!
Anyway, thanks for having me back internet world!