I'm not sure how to just start blogging again after being away for so long. Today when I saw a shiny glimmer in my eye while waiting for the blank computer screen to kick-in, I knew that maybe I was interested again - in what precisely I'm not sure, but I thought to myself that I could write something and that maybe alas, Sparrow in the Treetop was coming back from the dead.
At first I cautioned myself that I should really sit down and think about this... you know, make it good and well thought out, something beautifully written and proof-read... poignant and to the point (which generally I compare myself to other well-written blogs and I think... "Why don't I come across more polished like they do?") But after some deliberation and note writing while sitting jammed against a foggy window on the bus, I decided that there's nothing deep about this. Blogging just hasn't "been" me for a little while now. I wasn't feeling the benefit or the inspiration. Might I just say for the record that I absolutely hate writing this sort of post? I know there's a pattern of it buried deep in the recesses of these pages; diligent planning and plotting and blog-world networking and then, without warning, I lose interest. This generally followed by the "But I promise, I'll Change. I'll be world's number one blogger!" (To whom I'm making this promise other then myself, I'm not sure, but trust me, it's out there.) It drives me crazy that I'm not a "Follow-Through" person. That I don't have a sponsored network, that I'm just spinning my wheels on the internet. If I get too "Bloggy" (ie. DIY, Cook this! Read That! Wear this!) I'm self-conscious that I'm not writing enough "Real" content... and if I write "Real" content (quotations marks because let's be honest, what content on the internet is "real" anyway?) I feel like an over-sharer and totally vulnerable. Anyway, the blogging medium is intense. And I haven't felt intense lately... pretty much the opposite (more on that if I decide to write "On Why I Stopped Blogging Part 2"!) and hence the radio silence. But I do miss it. And I miss just using this space to think through things and catalogue some of the moments. So that's my foray into this blog thing again. I think I'm growing up and I'm looking into this space and I'm wondering if it still fits me as a person. I'd like it to grow with me... I just have to figure out how to go about translating that into HTML :)
Anyway. If you're the people I've gotten to know over the past few years... what is NEW? What has been happening? And what have I missed!?
ps. Gratuitous micro pig because.... LOOK AT THAT SNOUT. And also there are no pictures that capture... "blog absence."