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Life lately ^^ there's some pretty spring light, but also all of this:

I started a bit of a different schedule a few weeks ago - I'm getting up way earlier and it's thrown a bit of a wrench into the day. It's the good kind of wrench though, since now I'm getting home at a decent hour as opposed to 6:45 time slot which is when my previous commute had me walking in the door. When you're home almost by 7, that leaves about no time for anything fun or productive.

Speaking of productive, that's been the name of the game lately - I've been ticking things off the wedding to do list left right and centre. Which is good because you know, stress management. But you know what the other funny thing about productivity is? It's boring. I've had about 10 people ask me "How are the plans for the wedding going" and I really couldn't think of anything to say. "Good? I guess?" "How much do you really want to know…? Because I could just end this right here with: Oh you know weddings! You always end up doing way more then you said you would!" OR conversely I could tell you about how Mike and I got into an argument over the groomsmen's outfits and how we can't seem to agree on what colour of "peach" is actually peach.

Is there a lot of time left until August 16? It feels like there's not really… especially when I put it in a count of days. But at the same time it's still basically early spring here…. i.e., nowhere close to summer since I'm still in boots on the way to work and running tights for any sort of outdoor running. So since I've got this picture in my head that August 16 is almost the end of summer, there's this invisible safety blanket luring me into a false sense of security. It's cozy.

Or not, because you know what? These things always get done- seriously I'm pretty sure we're going to get married one way or another (barring the groomsmen don't show up in a Value Village outfit). So maybe it is secure I have no clue.

I've also, in case you can't tell, have been trying to figure out what I want for this blog. It's been the struggle since the beginning of it all really. It would be nice to know what I'm getting at. I know I love to write. So maybe I should just save posts for times when I actually have something of value to say…. as opposed to just random gabbing such as this post has been.

Can I just say though, I'm almost 30 and I know what my talents are at this point but I have no idea what to do with them? (By the way, I"m a firm believer that everyone has talents - it's just a matter of tapping into them.) It could be the fact that I'm being pulled in 10 different directions, or the increasing sense that I have to "settle down" with my life, but I'm feeling a bit "untapped" at the moment. And to tie this back to the original sentiment of the post, there's a lot of getting up in the morning, sitting on a bus, going to work and sitting in a chair - and all that doesn't really feel much like I'm using what God gave me. So I'm working out how to best go about changing that. The plan right now is that when I get it figured out, I"m going to do "that".

I'll let you know how it goes.